UNDATED ENTRIES FROM MY NOTES MADE A FEW YEARS AGO IN SAN FRANCISCO.
Today everyone is saying that the conspiracies involving Marina Oswald and E. Howard Hunt have got a monopoly on racism. Of course considering what they say about me, anything could be true. Obviously there are racists in the woodwork somewhere or other. #####
Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep? Speaking for myself — no. Occasionally I experience a waking nightmare about the subject, though. For what it’s worth, I don’t feel absolutely out of control of my own mind. It is more like there is an additional component to my mentality that occasionally becomes quite intrusive and obnoxious, with which I have to struggle for control of my own life — yet which I am usually capable of resisting. That, of course, could be illusion — the manipulation could be absolutely pervasive and could in fact dot every i of all my arguments against mind control. They could be using me to “eat.”
In DW #21 I described what, as far as I know, was my first mind control experience — an audio hallucination which occurred on the threshold of sleep when I was stationed in 1959 with Lee Oswald at LTA, El Toro Marine Base, Santa Ana and Tustin, California.
Probably my second such experience happened at Subic Bay, in the Philippines, when I was reading a biography of Henry David Thoreau. Only a series of intense nocturnal dreams about the subject matter of the book, it didn’t seem extraordinary at the time.
This happened just after I had become a Marxist, after looking first hand at the starving people of Intramuros in Manila. Up till then I was a Liberal and a Humanist. My Marxism was unusual in that it rejected Lenin, but held a place for Thoreau. For if he had lived at Walden Pond for 29 cents a day, then it could not be much of a burden for a government to furnish everyone with subsistence necessities. Anything beyond that, I figured, each individual could earn. Nevertheless, I wanted the people responsible for Third World shanty towns like Intramuros shot and the institutions that made such misery possible, even thinkable, suppressed and destroyed.
At about the same time, near the turn of the year, at Subic Bay, another Marine, named Mims, who was also an atheist, suggested I read Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand.
Months later, in 1960, I found a copy in a Yokohama book stall and began reading it at the same time I was entering processing to go back to the States and be discharged. Again, I was bombarded with many vivid dreams in which, this time, Reardon and Francisco and John Galt gave lengthy philosophical speeches to reinforce what I was reading in the book. This was evidently the third time I was subjected to mind control. I became a laissez-faire capitalist, convinced absolutely that Ayn Rand was the greatest mind of our age. I gather from Undercover that E. Howard Hunt was stationed, with the CIA, at Atsugi Naval Air Station. So was my Marine outfit. I am told these days, for whatever it may be worth, that the CIA knew of the experiments on me but was not behind them. Instead, they are supposed to have been the work of a laissez-faire capitalist who belonged to the Independent Order of Foresters, of all things, and/or Jose Delgado and Nelson Rockefeller.
When laissez-faire capitalists complain, these days, because I no longer agree with them, I find that just astounding! –Kerry Wendell Thornley






